// 2016 is the year of me \\

I know this sounds like something people always say. But New Years Eve I really had a epiphany. I was really sick, alone at home, cleaning and organizing my bedroom, finishing up Making a Murderer (Because ... yes ... I NEEDED to know what everyone was talking about, of course!), I was cruising YouTube and I came across a video from a beauty/lifestyle vlogger I follow - MarissaLace. I actually found two of them - This first one actually moved me quite a bit. It's called "What 2015 Taught Me"


All, I have to say is that we may be in different spaces in life and have different issues - but GIRL, I FEEL you. I SO feel you. And it really REALLY resonated with me. I really want to find myself and live for me as well. So often being a mother and a girlfriend you can tend to forget about yourself. One day you look in the mirror and don't recognize who you are or even know what your hobbies and loves are. It's all too easy to be wrapped up in what others needs and forget yourself.

She shortly after uploaded her resolutions video and I'm feeling her vibe. I've also decided to make this year about myself. (Obviously, I will still take care of others that need it but that's also part of taking care of myself) I've decided to invest in myself. Do things that make me feel good. Read as much personal development books as I can and really dive into who I am as a person. 2016 really is the year of me - I'm going to ground myself, I'm going to discover myself and I'm not going to depend on anyone else to provide me happiness. I am going to create it myself.

I'm really trying to figure out exactly what I want out of this year so I can't really lay out resolutions in detail.

But - what I can tell you -
I am reading at least one book a month. That one book needs to be personal development. Currently I'm reading "You Are A Badass" By Jen Sincero. I Highly recommend reading it. She's awesome! Lots of great things to take away from that book!

I am monitoring my bedtime closely and improving my routine. My goal is to wash my face and brush my teeth at the same time Alexa does those things (8:30) and then 8:35-9 she reads to me. Then 9-9:30 I relax watch a little TV, maybe spend time with Luke. Then I shut my phone off (or at least set aside and not touch again until morning) by 9:30. 9:30-10 I read and by 10 I can shut the lights off and pass out.

I have decided to stop indulging in other peoples bad behaviors. I will not enable any of those people especially if it's a toxic behvaior for me. I will not stay up late or feel the pressure to partake in certain activities like staying out super late, etc.

I also have decided to do what feels good. I'll wear clothes that make me feel happy. I will search out clothes that make me happy. I will wear lipstick and make up the way I like it because it makes me feel happy even if Luke doesn't like the lipstick part. I will continue to workout and fuel my body with healthy foods because it feels good. I will never accept anything less than feeling good.

I also have goals for in the home - bringing family night Mondays back. Trying to incorporate a date night into mine and Luke's life because I think that would really help us, and to stay on a good cleaning schedule as well as making dinner Thursdays on my day off (Idk about that last one, haha)

I think 2016 will be happy. Because I choose to be happy and I don't want anyone to hold me back and they only can if I let them.

I'm excited for 2016.

xoxo,
Nikki

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